2019-06-20 09:45 AM
Please pray for the Holy Spirit to give me wisdom and guidance to the right lawyer to help me. I left my abusive husband 8 years ago, he was abusive in every way except physical. In that way he was smart and never left any bruises or broken bones. I've had a very difficult time coming to this point of filing for divorce. I've been praying for a miracle of him really being born again and for reconciliation of our marriage, this August would have been 45 years. He goes to church, says that he's a Christian, but speaks nothing but lies about me. For 8 years he's been trying to get me to take my name off the deed to our house, I refuse to do that. We actually built 3 houses together through the years, we built and sold until we finally owned one without a mortgage. He worked me like a mule for years, I'm 5'2", he forced me to hang sheetrock, haul huge rocks and buckets of crushed rock and mulch. He has a short fuse and a hot temper, I was afraid of him and always tried to do what he wanted. We were married only 3 months and I became pregnant, I was on the pill and didn't know how it happened. He insisted that I played with the pills and didn't take them daily. I get sick every fall and need antibiotics, we didn't know back then that they would interrupt the effectiveness of the pill. My husband forced me to get an abortion because we were in the process of building our first house and it wasn't a convenient time to have a baby. I wasn't a committed Christian then but I knew it wasn't right. I think of this child every day and grieve over it, my husband still stands by his decision and has no feelings about it. I've been through a lot, he actually controlled me medically for the last 2 years I was home. He had me seeing a psychiatrist who went along with everything he said and said I was bi polar and I was eventually on a lethal dose of Lithium and Effexor. I was so drugged I have 2 years I don't remember. Then, he complained to our family doctor that my memory was slipping, and without any testing he put me on Aricept and said I had early onset Alzheimers. I believe he enjoyed the sympathy he received from everyone because he had such a sick wife. Now he's up to no good again and trying to get his pastor involved. I've decided that it's time for me to file for divorce and I need very clear guidance from the Holy Spirit. I'm a mercy driven person so this is extremely difficult for me, so I really need the prayers of fellow believers to keep me strong and get through this. All the heavy lifting through the years has all but destroyed my back, I had a botched surgery in 2016 and now all I can do is have nerve blocks and ablations done on it. Thanks for your prayers, God bless you all.
@Susan prayers stay encourage and faithful to Christ he will never leave you nor forsake you amen. read Psa 23@27